(ALL THIS DOESN'T MEAN I WILL LEAVE dA, JUST RANTING...or so. DON'T READ IT IF YOU DON'T WANT TO GET MAD...or so.)



I mean, I upload art and ppl comment it but somehow I feel weird about it.

It's getting too ordinary so to say.
Sure I'm very thankful to those ppl, plz don't get a wrong idea! D:
I love to read comments, srsly. It's not the content which I don't like (but crappy critiques...orz).
It's just...getting ordinary to get comments.
The kick is missing somehow.


And hm...
There are 750+ ppl who watch but I would say around 40-70 people are active when it comes to my art and stuff :s
I don't expect everyone to comment or fave to show that they're still interested in my art etc, but it's just human IMO to get sad about a fact like above ._.
(THIS IS ABOUT ACTIVITY WITH MY CRAP AND NOT ABOUT THE AMOUNT OF WATCHES AND FAVES, KTHX! Before someone says I'm not grateful to my watchers and favers...and whoever will think this, is an asshole.)

And DDs lose they're meanings.
Just look at them on some days, there is a few crap to see and the reasons why the pics got a DD are SO SO LAME sometimes.
And I also noticed it since alot of ppl in my watch-list got DDs lately.
Doesn't mean that they don't deserve them btw. But it's nothing special anymore if everyone is able to get them with (a bit) "better" art than the others *cough*

Oh btw, nowadays you can draw like crap, but when your coloring is awesome, ppl will love your art and say it's awesomely gorgeous. Ever noticed?

Last but not least I'm not important to anyone of here ・ω・Important as a person to be more accurate...before someone comes and says I'm only important just because of my art. Or you better not say that I'm important just to lift my mood, I hate lies :v
...Especially when I never heard from you.


Otherwise I ridiculously tried to maintain my friendships which I gained here but these ppl seem to have better things to do nowadays. Same in RL *cough* FAIL FAIL
So I don't try it further.
And no, I don't want everyone to come to me and HF now, I just feel sad because I couldn't maintain these relationships and the ppl weren't bothered to do the same.
I guess after 2 months of charin-lessness you have forget me : D
(Maybe I try it out, yay)

I don't see any deeper point in dA than showing art to ppl and...that was it.
I srsly expected more from dA and it's users when I first came here.

LMAO internetz in 2007 was the best

_{OH OMG BTW I GOT MACCHA MACCHA OMG MACCHA
And today is my mom's birthday :v}

Uhm.
Yeah.

Maybe you ppl know that I lurv singing xD
You remember the Singstar-session @ mah teacher's home I told about? After that, some of my class-mates said I'm good at singing : D
So I tried to get even better and improved a bit again and now I feel like singing for you guys xD

And if I'm not good in your opinion, just see it as a pastime ¦D
I thought =joodlez recording was fun to hear 8D

Just ask me for a song xD
Maybe I already got it in my music-library (<- full of crap) : D

I got lots of singable music especially from:

(complete discographies)
-> ALI PROJECT ♥
-> Aural Vampire ♥
-> Ayumi Hamasaki
-> capsule ♥
-> Fort Minor (lol, not necessary actually xD)
-> Grey Daze ♥
-> Haruka Shimotsuki ♥
-> Jamiroquai ♥
-> Kanon Wakeshima
-> Koda Kumi
-> kukui ♥
-> Linkin Park (Eeeehr;;; I guess I won't shout like Chester xDD)♥
-> misono
-> Perfume
-> Tommy heavenly6/Tommy february6
-> YMCK
-> Yousei Teikoku

And some albums and songs from (*) :

-> Ami Suzuki
-> Koda Kumi
-> Kalafina
-> Nana Mizuki
-> Nagisa Cosmetic
-> Rurutia
-> Sweetbox
-> Utada Hikaru

AND LOOOOOOOOOOOTS OF ANIME OPENINGS+ENDINGS xD

Just ask for a song and I'll tell you if I got it : D
Otherwise you could show it to me and I can listen to it xD
I try to sing it and then I'll decide if I really want it OTL


Don't expect too much please.
My throat makes problems at the moment because of my salmonallae...sometimes they cause heart burn D:
And first I have to be alone at home;; The computer's residence is the living room 8D;
And there are days where I feel shame for my voice, omg xD

But feel free to ask for a song :'D


_{(*) I got way more music but it's not singable;;;
♥ = Fave Band/Artist}

W00t only one week and one days left until...SPRING BREAK aka EASTER HOLIDAYS OwO
Yay.
Still, there are two exams left x__x History- and Maths-class sucks D:

But in two weeks and one day...I'LL GO TO BF-SAN AGAIN *______*
Finally...after 8 months I can meet him again :'3
I look so much forward to it <333 It really gives me strength :3
_{But after I have to return home, I'm super-weak again for another year lol...}
And the weather as well <3 It's so nice the last days TTwTT


And I'm ill
I got an infection with - guess what - ...salmonellae, ugh...
Fortunately it's NOT a heavy infection, but it's extremely annyoing.

_{I always feel like I must puke...but I rather run to the pot then and it's coming out the more natural way...so to say WTF. And it's happen OFTEN, srsly. Almost the same like typhus...}
So I feel tired fast D: I almost slept in school |||OTL
I'm very happy that it isn't a heavy infection..I read you could die if you got one;;;
Holy crap...
They struck me last weekend :'v So the whole week until now I was terrorized with them DD:
I'm afraid of eating something lol...my stomach makes the weirdest sounds now and it's pretty embarrassing in classes orz

I wish everyone to not get infected with salmonellae .____.


Anyway...I still got my super-huge artblock and I still lost my drawing-skill 8v
I miss my pics with a meaning behind omg...music doesn't help me anymore and art and everything visual itself isn't a good idea, I'm afraid of making similar pics >_>

Omg, it's weekend yaaaaay
Long time since I wanted it that badly o3ô

But well, BF-san was moving and now I can't phone or chat with him D:
So I'm playing Persona 3 all the time owo
Minato (<- the main-char)is so much love, especially in the Manga ;3;

Some gay rushed Fanart °w°
Some Fanart @w@





I was too lazy for the other eye |||OTL But hey, Manga-cover censored it, too @w@-d

And I failed to make Shuuji Sogabe-like orz
P3 is a must-play and read q__q

Today, I got Hikaru Utada's This is the one.
It's even worse than Exodus
I like her Japanese stuff more because it isn't that RnB-like -__-
Her voice doesn't fit to RnB-Music imo.
There's no song I rly like ~_~ But "On and On" is good :0 And "Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence - FYI" >_< The title is a movie afaik

And yeah...I guess I'll will make that poster-shop in May or June ewe
Look forward to it :3

Oh and YEEEAH
I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MAH INTERNSHIP-REPORT O____O
It won't chase me any longer *super dance*


And Seerii, if you ever read this...I'm so sorry that I'm so unimaginative ;___;
I want to make a nice lineart but I always fail :<


EDIT

Oh btw...a boy in my school said he will run amok if a teacher doesn't stop to treat him worse than the others O__o
I hope he didn't mean it serious...

It's recently hot news that a boy ran amok in some school somewhere in Germany, idk where exactly...
It's not the first time that a boy did that here in Germany D: